Huge effort, but so worth it.

I woke this morning, as Paul shouted Goodbye, from DOWNSTAIRS!!! where he'd slept comfortably on the bed settee, so there. :)

I felt lousy, I just wanted to cry, you know when you haven't got the energy to do owt. But yet I knew, from experience the only way to cure my feelings, was to cycle. I quickly phoned my kids and said I'd meet them at Mums. And a friend ;) in the park. And so that was what I did, and although temporarily I felt better after cycling 8miles, I think I must be premenstrual or s'thing :) (she says hoping) immaculate conception if Im pregnant !! So I aint worried, what were you thinking????

I'm doin my bi polar thing again? and I'm missing Steve, although I think he's back tomorrow. I've just been busy being 'Popular' and liked. And now, I'm flat and alone, but it's a good job because I don't feel like doing anything. So not good :(xx

Fat Lazy Git

I spent most of my day writing, and sleeping.

Met Paul at 6, (from Northern Rail) at the Mohul, so I cycled there, (not very far let me tell you!!) Ate like a humongous Pig, and struggled back, with Paul. It feels good because I know longer cling to his arm like a limpet!!! I beat him home, every time!!!

I've printed some grovelling letters off, for Paul to drop into Northern Rail, in the hope of some kind person, looking favourably on the bigger picture and benefits of me continuing at Hillsborough. But sometimes I am my own worst enemy, for not taking my own advice, because just sometimes, I think how can I be so selfish and want money, for doing s'thing I really enjoy. Atleast I've got food, and a bed at night. And I'm not a starving fluffy kitten!!

Saturday

Hey, I was a SKYPE virgin? But no more....:) and it was quite painless, and comfortable. I had no beginners nerves, it just kind of happened ;)

If anyone wants to gently enter me, (too rude) on to their contact list, Im cardouglas10

It was the guy who owns Greenspeed, so a true Star, in my eyes. Anyway he couldn't pay for me to continue Hillsborough, although he thought it a worthy cause. So he's sending me a couple of t shirts, with Ziggies on.

Nice day spent in town, with a cycle just to catch the bus, lunch wi my lil boy. I got 12 copies of the Pic, of CFH group that was taken on Thursday. So I can give everyone one. Well it was sooo cheap, like 30pence a pic, so I felt like being nice.

Ooooooh bugger, I've just got a nawty letter, eeeek about my SDS payments, asking for receipts.....Oops!!!....1 years worth though!!!

Dave Holidays just popped in on his way home :)

Hilsborough

Ok, I've had a blip trying to copy and paste and save pics of Hillsborough yesterday. I think it just must be down to the copywright or s'thing???

I had eluded to the fact that s'thing was happening, (i just better check that it can go public)

Big drumroll and .......silence :)

This is today, ? not yesterday!!

Thanks to Rob, I had the excitement of Greenspeed, been so into my Tiara :) It's getting another showing tomorrow, but I can't say too much about it....yet. But Mr Marsden chose a fine time to hurt himself!!!!

I am soooo tired

I'm not hard I am feeble, but hey some say that's fairly normal for a brain damaged person? But I always try and be more like I was b4, when I was 21. The fact that I'm 44 now, with 2 very active kids (and the rest of the streets) I keep forgetting to take account of. But thing is I can't even remember what I did really yesterday, Oh yeah....I'm just tired.

Briefly, I got a cab with Ziggy to Zest where the lovely Miriam works, anyhow it was an Older and Wiser event, and as it's only a stones throw from Hillsborough, I seized the moment to drum up some publicity.

I met some fab folk there who've invited me, to other Displays, and I had to write an article to go in this Newspaper for the 50+ local thing. Anyway, I wrote it in between, getting the kids off to School, Showering, and going on 2 meetings, one after the other at ASC. One of these meetings was about how I can be funded to continue life at Hillsborough. Well apart from Hannah offering to Bungee jump!!! to raise money, (Ahhh how lovely of her, though) I know a couple of the others are no hope rs as well :( I had hoped that she was gonna reveal a secret pot of cash.

Thanks Rob :)

How exciting is it? that Greenspeed, in Australia!! want to write a page on lil ol Me??? I'm scared to list all the folk I could thank for this attention, in case I miss s'one?? So I'm not going to try, but I'm sure you know who you are.

I rushed about getting ready, only to discover, i'd got the wrong day!! That's what Brain Damage does s'times:D I was so happy when I knew I'd cocked up, so cycled to the shops, bought cake and pigged out with a friend. Who had sought my advice, (yes I know it's hard to believe? on setting up in Self Directed Support - managing it) And you know that job I applied for? Well the same place is running courses on SDS, and they want some Facilitators.

Steve M phoned :( I do miss him. But he agreed to be on the end of the phone on Weds, when I meet with ASC. I'm wearing my Fab Trike Tiara tomorrow, so I may get a pic, I'm doing an Older peoples event, at Zest, so I'm taking Ziggy, and leaflets of Hillsborough.

Windy City....

You know me, never backwards, about coming forwards, and all that? I text ed Lawrence ;) and said, today.....or June!! To my delight, we met for 3hrs!!! He is quite similar to me, in the fact that he's nearly normal!! (Gosh he'd kill me if he read this!!) I mean he hasn't got Spanners and nuts and bolts, falling from his head or owt!!! and he has a gorgeous Border Terrier, I've volunteered to be her boarding kennel, should he ever need to go away.

I called into see my Mum, on the way back, I remember when that used to be such an arduous journey, to my Mums or beyond, and it is so easy now. Will I ever think of the journey to Esporta as been that easy? I've only cycled it once!!

The dust blew up in my face on the way back, quite a few times. It wasn't an easy ride, a Silver BMW crawled up my back side, and then made a go for it on the straight, but he hadn't bargained for this red van coming quite so fast, none of it was my fault but I would have felt so responsible, if the 2 of them hadn't just managed to miss each other.

I'm off to B IRRP tomorrow :)

Children!!!

I read my 'lil' boy the riot act, as I loosened those Apron Strings, 'You must Stay with Wil' I repeated time and time again. And enjoyed the relative peace, of a spot of Lunch with my Daughter, at the Fabulous 'Master Chef Deli, a short cycle, with a 5stone human uphill and we'd made it. I had earnt my lunch, and quickly consumed the Calories, that I'd burnt getting there!!

Beep, Beep, .....Beep, Beep. The texts started flooding through. First Wil, saying how F* had gone off with his Step Cousin, and he couldn't find him. Then my lil boy crying, I cant find Will and my cousin lives in the opposite direction!! So I grabbed helmet and keys etc, but first I phoned his Dad, he could drive, he had a car? Then my lil boy called, it's ok Mum i've got a lift home off a mate and his Mum, but by now, it was too late for him. He was gonna get the Wrath of his Dad. EEEEEk, I hate seeing my kids cry but just maybe, he deserved a right bollocking ???

So that's where I'm at.

Brill Rob from West Country Recumbent, has forwarded the photo of Ziggy which is on an Alice Band now, onto Greenspeed. So you never know? International stardom or sponsorship, may not be far away.

Write Way, Head Lines????

Apparently, Magnus was a bit of a letch, but honestly he didn't lay a finger on me!! I wonder why? It might have s'thing to do with be grinning inanly like a moon cat.

Who knows which ones the best :)(Name 4 the writing group)

Last Week , given 3 Characters, I had to write a short story :D Well mine included Elvis Presley imagining, what was in the young girls jeans. And about folk getting a kinda stirring downstairs!!Perhaps that revealed too much of my own feelings and thoughts ;)People in the group did laugh, but maybe it was more from embarrassment!!

On the way home, I told Matt, about a very surreal and incredibly strange thing that had once happened to me....12 years after my RTA the Police phoned me, and said 'We've had your bag that we retrieved from your car, in the Station for 10 years, please come and take it!! Wow, how would that feel, seeing that and unpacking, I wasn't too sure that I wanted to revisit that day? Anyway, I got the bag, and I think the most interesting bit, was a music tape, which of course had stopped at exactly the time I had collided with the bus. You'll not know the song, it wasn't like 'Girlfriend in a Coma' or owt, it was by a band called The Armoury Show, singing Castles in Spain. I've looked at them tonight on You Tube, and they look like a right bunch of girlie's!!

I have loosely made arrangements with Lawrence, to see him on Sunday/Monday. Now it's very' safe', if I meet in the Park, on Monday, but not so ;) if I meet on the Sunday, when my children are away.

I am really busy next week, I'm just looking at my Calendar, thing is, I want to do it all.

Mmmmmm just back from Fishy Friday, at the local. I did cycle there and back, which allows me to be a Fat B* xxx

Some Old Faces

I don't mean, old as in Aged :) Sonia, and Howard (my super hero who mends punctures) Both arrived to take CFH, which was good and bad, because it proved they weren't relient on me being there, and the usual group, needed 2 people. Or it could just mean that I'm not very good :( Only about 5 showed this week though)





Half way through the session, a young woman was looking fed up, so I asked Sonia, if we could cycle round the Park together, I felt very apprechiate, because it was apparent that the young woman really enjoyed the individual attention.

Dave and Freds Place in the Inclusive Cycling, he's great Dave :)

My usual fav group arrived, that was Autism Plus, I did my usual High Fives with Ian because he likes that :) It's really good, because I know all of their names now, it makes it all so personal. It wasn't the usual staff though :( Another group arrived from A +, and I knew the staff better, which macde for a bit of a jolly. Meanwhile, the lady from CFH asked if she could stay with me and A+....?? ' Of course you can' was my reply. mI'm not actually sure that was ok, but I just want her to enjoy her times Cycling.

:D I'd actually brought some Lemon Slices and some Spotted Dick today, for us all to tuck in to. Which did provide some rude jokes and all the inuendos started tripping out, from Russell (Hi Russ) which was exactly why I'd brought it!! I've only just got the one about Billy Goats cheese!!! It made me blush ;)

I sent a line to nice folk who might consider me carrying the Olympic Torch, as a good thing, if nowt else it might draw attention to Inclusive Cycling? But hey I'm not sure if any of them actually will. I also nominated Steve M, because he's been there from the very beginning (poor bugger) he's had me phone him nearly everyday, seeking a cheerful banter. And of course he set up Hillsborough, which is now so important to me.

I'm late doing this, I'm just off to 'Write Way' See ya later. x

Thanks for that Pete

Thanks for that little gem Pete. I can only suggest to folk that they DO find ME inspiring :D and hope, I've forwarded the website onto the usual suspects :)

I didn't feel terribly inspiring this morning, when I realised I hadn't been on my trike for 6 whole days!! So off I set to meet Lawrence, the very handsome younger man, who has also suffered a brain injury. It's strange but when I text some of the usual for a meet, as soon as I mentioned A handsome brain injured chap who cycles, they all said BYE. I think folk want me settled, but I don't want to turn into a boring unsociable git, all comfy in my routine, I know it doesn't suit me. But never the less, we had a really pleasurable couple of hours, in the Park, he confided in me quite a lot. So I directed him to ASC because I believed they could help him as they have me. I cycled onto Mums, stayed over an hour and came home. On switching to my emails, I had a very long one from another member of BIRRP the Brain Injury Injury group. I phoned Hannah, from ASC and got a number, and gave it out accordingly. I then hit Reply All, a copy went to CIL, the same place that I had previously applied for a job. Ooooooooooh it must have sparked s'thing, because I got a reply from The Boss, thanking me for giving out some sound advice, and also for applying for the job. Apparently they had had over 40 applicants, and had in fact interviewed those with proven experience.

Gosh.... that was long winded.

Hey Ho, it's Hillsborough tomorrow :)

And Thank you Pete, that was a really nice suggestion :)x