25 years ago today, I had finished my morning shift, at the psychiatric hospital I worked at. I had taken the previous week off sick, with German measles, leading up to that day. Knackered, and because I am nice and hardworking I had been let off an hour early. But if I hadn't I may have missed the double decker bus, 3 cars and a parking meter. That I crashed into.
Somebody in the nearby flats, called an ambulance,(this was 1988!) Well at least that's what I've been told. I've also been told scarey things, like I was resuscitated at the scene? and that I seared the top of my brain off. All I know is that some time later ( end of October) I woke from an afternoon nap, in a strange but yet familiar bed. And asked a Nurse, in an excited Wow type voice, if I'd just had a wacky dream. Or if I really had been involved in a car accident, and been in a coma for several months. And she turned to me with tears in her eyes, and said it wasn't a dream. (but secretly, I still thought it could be, but not really if you get what I'm on about!!!!) I do know that it wasn't particularly unpleasant or difficult. I supposed it was because I had little awareness of life outside. And that I was missing so much. .
I also was having crazy dreams leading upto this, that could have been glimpses of the world around me, like the one where I was strapped to a 'Tilt table' looking out over the roof tops of Sheffield, and Jasper one of my brothers, got me to sign my name. I kind of did, I think, he screamed with laughter. And declared with joy that he was bringing my cheque book in the next day (that was in the days of cheque books too)
Another regular dream was where I would be receiving Communion from the local vicar, and instead of sipping from a goblet, I was given frozen cubes of wine? Obviously this wasn't the case ever, but apparently in the early days of my Hospitalisation, the physios fed me frozen black currant juice!!
I mean you possibly know my life story, and I really don't want to bore you. But you I do give you permission, to log off now :)
My boyfriend at the time was Jock, we had been serious. And had talked of marriage, and maybe one day having a family and all the stuff, young couples think of. But there was no hurry, because we were going to live forever!!!
We had the most enormous wedding! It was fantastic! I don't really look upon it painfully anymore, because without it I might not have had my Daisy and Finn. Some years later?........17 ??? we split up :( and I probably went through more of a life change than my disabling car accident had caused! ) I could not stop sobbing, my poor children, it must have been horrid, I cried every day for 20 months. Although they say now they cant remember. And when they recall me they only ever think of me as laughing, which is really nice!!
I am back from a nice lunch in the park, wi my mate Anj, it didn't have quite the 'feel good' factor that it normally had, because I still haven't got Ziggy back. So I had to be taken by car!! I used to think I just pretended some of the time to cycle to places. But I so would have done anything to have got there myself, instead of waiting for a lift. Steve M, has still got Ziggy :( I know he says he can't speed things up but, ewwwwww!!! It's just so frustrating.
I did enjoy yesterday, as my Virtual friend Fiona Hutchings came, I've only Virtually nagged her to give it a go for 18 months. Anyway she stopped 2 hours, and I think she enjoyed it. She experienced her life changing moment 2 years ago? Her issues are mostly invisible to the eye.
Have I mentioned that some very influential important big names in the Olympic legacy thing, want to make a video of me, it's about tackling adversities. And saying just because you're the way you are, it doesn't mean you have to be idle, and it doesn't mean you can't be very healthy. So of course I've asked them to film me at Hillsborough, which they thought was fab. And thank goodness Steve agreed, if the Stars of the show didn't mind. Crikey this has been a long one!!
Oh and Rob, I think you are right about me and derailers?? I use the Anula at Hillsborough, and I'm having probs, but it's s'thing I am sure I'd get used too. I think I get on folks' nerves, when I'm spotted stationary, as I try and put the chain back on. I keep knocking the left hand side which moves the sprocket??? Am I making sense???