:( I'm so miserable

I'd be a right Barrel of laughs, if I'd never found Cycling I'm sure!!...just a tad sarcastic!! I've only been without Ziggy for 12 days, and it's effecting me so much, I feel so negative and worn out. I've just been and cut half the lawn, because I was too worn out and down, to finish it.. I so need a spare, I do. Even better if it was Pedal Assist.